Please pray for my kids and wife

[steveEray]

My kids still with cps
My mistakes and my silence has caused it all.
I would ask for prayer on my behalf but that would be selfish.
I thought if I went away then things would at least be normal for my family.
After trying something stupid I relized if I went away who would be there for my family.
I need to be in jail not them.
Ive been shunned my the bb boards and my attorneys have told me not to talk about my case.
When the boat crashed everyone who was at the casino's jumpped ship and said I was the cause. I am talking in circles for a reason some of you might know.
I am who I am just keep us in your prayers as I don't know what the future holds for us as a family and ME as a father.
Sometimes I wonder if there is a God why would this all happen. Then happen the way it did THEN wonder why my kids and wife keep being interigated by CPS on a matter. I also wonder why my Kids who know nothing now know code named and labs that convieniatly were told to them. Also I've not seen my kids in a month when they stopped my visits because a cps worker twisted my words and told a judge I threaten to kill her.
Thank you for listening to a portion of problems in our lives.
Please pray for my "family"

[Goes4ever]

I am praying 4 ya bro

[Budlite74]

bro, god has his reasons!

prayer done

[gator_mclusky]

Prayers your way. I suggest some spiritual canceling. I claim no denomination but when I hit rock bottom 7 yrs ago I went to see a young Priest. I was 30 and he was like 36. He saved my life and even went to court with me. I was looking at jail time due to my drinking. He saved me....in more ways than one. If it werent for him Id be dead or in jail.

Good luck and Prayers sent but I highly suggest a spiritual councelor. Also read the Book of Psalms in the Bible. You will be amazed at how much it will help. Try it!

gator

[steveEray]

Originally Posted by gator_mclusky

Prayers your way. I suggest some spiritual canceling. I claim no denomination but when I hit rock bottom 7 yrs ago I went to see a young Priest. I was 30 and he was like 36. He saved my life and even went to court with me. I was looking at jail time due to my drinking. He saved me....in more ways than one. If it werent for him Id be dead or in jail.

Good luck and Prayers sent but I highly suggest a spiritual councelor. Also read the Book of Psalms in the Bible. You will be amazed at how much it will help. Try it!

gator

It is strange that you brought up psalms. One night I had enough of enough. My mom brought me a bible. I opened it and there's where it went. I can't remember of the top of my head but it was scary. I don't think I've ever read so much. I relized what family is just by opening a book. I relized I could not change the past or people. Unfortunatly I'm more of a revolation guy but psalms did open my eyes to help with my current issues. I do need to read more

[gator_mclusky]

Im praying for yall. Keep reading. I read what Ive already read from time to time.

Good luck and keep us posted.

gator

[AlmostThere]

I feel your pain as far as dealing with CPS they are the closest thing to the Gustapo we have in our society.

The 23rd psalm will help you thru your current situation. I have a copy of it in my wallet it has helped me thru some dark times of my own. For the more stubborn of us it takes hitting rock bottom and losing everything we hold dear to find our way back to the path of righteousness.

I also questioned why god would put anyone thru what i was going thru. I stood in front of the altar in a cathedral in Chicago and screamed at the top of my lungs what a no good sick twisted mother fucker I thought he was. How could anyone who supposedly loved us let people suffer how they do. Instead of calling the cops a cpl priests calmed me sat me down and talked with me a cpl hours. They set me on my way to finding the path to restoring my faith. I entered hating the world and everything in it not giving a shit if i lived or died.Half hoping that God would strike me dead for disrespecting his house. I left with a different outlook.

I now truly believe that what doesnt kill us makes us stronger and that he never gives us more of a burden to bare then we can handle . I also believe that if your faith is strong you can make it thru anything and come out on the other side with whats important to you intact.

Didnt mean to preach but you struck a cord with me. Keep your head up and keep pushing forward if you have faith it all truly will be ok in the end.

Prayers are sent for your family and for you. To find the strength to make it thru.

[steveEray]

thanx brother
I never expected my family to suffer from
my stupid mistakes and someone I trusted with
everything turn and hand the gernade to me with
the pin already pulled. I don't have friends in life and there
is a reason. Thus my life paths are not well thought out.
It looks like I might spend a little time behind bars.
I hate to say this but I guess its in gods hands and I understand
what does not kill us will make us stronger but what about those who
are on the verge of breaking and or going crazy.
It doesn't bother me that the courts/cps/cops keep F'ing with me but
when they screw with my family it sets me off.
I know they want me too loose it but to hold my kids hostage prying to get info.
The problem I have is I've gone down a road of no return. I've stood my ground
now I just have to wait out the charges and see what happens.

[AlmostThere]

One night a man had a dream. He dreamed He was walking along the beach with the LORD. Across the sky flashed scenes from His life. For each scene He noticed two sets of footprints in the sand. One belonging to Him and the other to the LORD.

When the last scene of His life flashed before Him, he looked back at the footprints in the sand. He noticed that many times along the path of His life there was only one set of footprints. He also noticed that it happened at the very lowest and saddest times of His life.

This really bothered Him and He questioned the LORD about it. LORD you said that once I decided to follow you, you'd walk with me all the way. But I have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life there is only one set of footprints. I don't understand why when I needed you most you would leave me.

The LORD replied, my precious, precious child, I Love you and I would never leave you! During your times of trial and suffering when you see only one set of footprints, it was then that I carried you.

[steveEray]

Now I get wat Budlite74 was saying
"God has his reasons"
Sometimes I ask myself. Did I really mess up this bad?
What in life made me do what was done and what made
me get so deep per say.
I turned on my family to help out a brother when in return
that brother turned on me.
Sounds alot like Psalms