[AlmostThere]

I feel your pain as far as dealing with CPS they are the closest thing to the Gustapo we have in our society.

The 23rd psalm will help you thru your current situation. I have a copy of it in my wallet it has helped me thru some dark times of my own. For the more stubborn of us it takes hitting rock bottom and losing everything we hold dear to find our way back to the path of righteousness.

I also questioned why god would put anyone thru what i was going thru. I stood in front of the altar in a cathedral in Chicago and screamed at the top of my lungs what a no good sick twisted mother fucker I thought he was. How could anyone who supposedly loved us let people suffer how they do. Instead of calling the cops a cpl priests calmed me sat me down and talked with me a cpl hours. They set me on my way to finding the path to restoring my faith. I entered hating the world and everything in it not giving a shit if i lived or died.Half hoping that God would strike me dead for disrespecting his house. I left with a different outlook.

I now truly believe that what doesnt kill us makes us stronger and that he never gives us more of a burden to bare then we can handle . I also believe that if your faith is strong you can make it thru anything and come out on the other side with whats important to you intact.

Didnt mean to preach but you struck a cord with me. Keep your head up and keep pushing forward if you have faith it all truly will be ok in the end.

Prayers are sent for your family and for you. To find the strength to make it thru.